Life Is An Indulgence ♥

In this confusion.

2012-01-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

I learned to love someone with all my life..
But there came a point where I got tired, not of loving, but of sacrificing all that I have.

Then a thought came to my mind..
I have given everything but received nothing
but pain and tears in return.

Is this enough to really prove I love that person?

Or is it a sign telling me to stop sacrificing and learn to love myself a little more?

Sometimes, the people whom we've known only for a short amount of time, have a bigger impact on us than those we've known forever.

What am I holding on to?

There are things that I don't want to think, but I can't forget.
There are things that I don't want to continue, but I'm afraid to end.
It's like I don't expect anything anymore, but I'm willing to wait.

You can always close your eyes to the things that you don't want to see, but you can never close your heart to the things that you don't want to feel. And right now, I feel terrible.

I have so much to say, but I just can't put them into words.

You may not be perfect, but you'll always be enough.

And you know what?
It's better to say something direct to the point than to keep someone guessing. Because maybe, their intepretation is different from what you really mean.
So it's either you want me back or you don't.
Don't leave me hanging there by a thin thread, because I will chase you around for awhile,
But there will come a point where I'll stop and walk away.

It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen, but it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you want. You are my 'want'. I'm sure I've stated that clearly last night.

You said that I'd be your everything if it wasn't because of all these complications.
What complications? Life is simple, we just decided to make it complicated.

It hurts to see someone you love ignoring you, it also hurts that he doesn't feel your love. But it hurts even more that he loves you too, and just doesn't want you to know.

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert. And I can't even cry anymore. I've cried too much. Feeling empty for far too long.

I miss you :( so much.
And I dunno what to do to make this hurt go away.
I wish you wanted to be with me the way I wanted to be with you.

I was much better off before I met you.

What happened on the rooftop, stays there.

2012-01-01T17:16:00.001+08:00

Okay lah. Damn kesian you people.. so I'm not gonna delete this blog yet haha.

MALAYSIAN NEW YEARS CELEBRATION WAS AWESOMEEE <3

Location: Major Maniam's house @ 5th Av.

Party started around 9pm-ish but I was there bout 6pm to help out with decos and stuff.

The drinking started the minute people started arriving :D I had one at the beginning... and the rest.. well.

Piccies!

Kawan from Sri Ramachandra Dental :)

Batchmates :D

The boys :)

How did i look? ;)

Some of 'em girlies.

halfway to my journey of highness, I got a bike ride frm one of em seniors.

Hence, my very super duper elated face:

Fire crackers were waaaayyyy too loud.

oops hahah terbalik.

Mr Bartender <3

We had like 9 full bottles of liquor. Smirnoff.. whiskey..

Dancin'

But it sort of drizzled a lil.. so we continued our party in the house.

Towards midnight, everyone was soooooo fcking high.

Some started dancing like mad.. some were emotional.. some were happy.. some were just dying on the couch.

ahaha. see?

There were ppl shouting frm the rooftop..

and some were doing shit with their phones, calling ppl saying IM NOT DRUNKKKKK!!!!!

I think a fight almost happened :S

I was being happy, sitting around :P

But yeah, I'm not proud to say..

I was wasted. Again.

2 raw shots of Bacardi.

And cups and cups and cups of coke+liquor.

We stayed over at the place..

Wide awake and sober til 3am-ish?

I realised that I tend to wake up early after a long night.

Got up around 8 this morning feeling awesome :)

I had fun though. like, massively. :D

I hope u had a good new years too!

This year:

Let the wrong ones go.

Let the old dreams die.

Let the right ones in.

The Painful Truth.

2011-12-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

So we have broken up about 2 weeks now. We still talk. But it's not the same anymore.

And I thought I was doing okay.

Truth is, I'm not okay.

My nights are empty without you.

Everytime something good happens, the first person i wanna tell would be you.

When things go bad, the first person i wanna talk to would be you.

If I have something to complain, the first person I wanna complain to would be you.

But then I realise, you're not there anymore. And it hurts.

"I'm your xmas present. do what you want." I guess I just lost my gift.

I feel so stupid, sitting here missing all the times we had. Sitting here missing you.

I fucking miss you all day, everyday. And you have no idea how pathetic it makes me feel because i have no idea if you miss me back.

Seeing you in college everyday isn't exactly helping the situation either.

But i guess that just because you miss someone, it doesn't mean they belong in your life.

I don't understand why someone so perfect had to come into my life and then just leave.

You knew it wasn't gonna work, but you still went with it. and then left me broken in pieces.

You may see me smiling around college, but deep inside, I don't mean it. because I'm so hurt to the point where I don't even wanna see your shadow. seriously.

Because every fucking time I see you, my heart just dies. Everyday, I'll die over and over again.

I can never look at you another way ever again. Instead of knowing you as just the senior in 3rd year, i see you as my ex-boyfriend. fml?

I keep telling myself that things will be better eventually, but you know what, it's not. It's fcking not getting okay. I'm not okay. I'm tired of pretending like I don't care. When inside, I really do care. A lil too much.

i've totally given up on x'mas. because i know no matter how much i ask for it, you're never coming back.

why

2011-12-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

No no no no…

Why this Kolaveri Kolaveri di

Empty Life, Uh

Girl you know you, Got me feeling Stupid

Right now..

You’ve got Me Drinking

Shots of Whisky

Trying to forget this bullsh**

Love is Blind

Although i tried, This Has gone on too long

You told Me Lies, So Many Lies

I want to Start Over..

Baby I am Dying Now, I don’t know why you’re smiling

This is how you broke my heart and

I can’t believe I loved…. you,

no no no

How could you do this to me,

do this to me, do this to me…

sing it me with now

How could you do this to me,

do this to me, do this to me…

Sing it me with now

yeah yeah

this is how we do it in the uk..can you feel me

All the colours are fading , fading

i don’t like this feeling

I used to see the moon and the stars

but now the skies are empty

Love is so blind

Although i tried, This Has gone on too long

You told Me Lies, So Many Lies

I want to Start Over

1…2..3..4..

How could you do this to me,

do this to me, do this to me…

sing it me with now

How could you do this to me,

do this to me, do this to me…

no no no no….

why this Kolaveri Kolaveri di

Drastic.

2011-12-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

Hi guys :)

wow it's december already?

haha

well anyways,

2011 has been really weird.

it's been going up and then going down.

drastic changes happened.

people walked into my life,

touched it briefly then left.

many others walked in, waiting to leave.

some will stay.

but whatever it is,

i've decided to delete this blog.

I've kinda lost a reason to keep it.

no no, im perfectly okay.

I just don't wanna do it anymore.

So when the end (or maybe before the end) of December comes,

I will delete this.

I'm not sure if I'll start blogging anytime in future.

but for now.

i need a break.

see you guys.

thanks for dropping by.

Hangover

2011-11-27T17:54:00.000+08:00

I realised this place has been dead for awhile

ahah

my bad.

been really caught up with life and it's problems.

So just a lil update..

I went clubbing last night at Candy Club.

FML

the club was awesome possum.

It was like secluded behind this hotel..

AND IT WAS LIKE MOS PART II.

damn nice.

I still remember the music man.

Got invited by the seniors to celebrate one of their brithdays.

As i was pretty upset bout life.. all i wanted to do was sit there and drink.

Got there, had one vodka shot (Ramanov?). I was still okay.

HAHAHA

then i heard shite.. and had another shot withink half an hour.

I dunno why, but the second shot got me so fucking wasted -.-

Then...

someone came to ask if i was good.

I just started crying.

I freaking cried and cried and cried.

I cried all the tears that I held in for so long.

I was talking shite.

Damn wasted.

I dont remember anything right now.

People had to carry me back.

hahaha.

1 other friend was tipsy like feck.. and one was high.

I was just drunk.

But on the way back, I remember they had to stop for someone to puke.

HAHAHHAHA

and the tipsy fella started crying in the car.

Woke up this morning and everyone's like asking

''dude, do you remember what happened last night??"

Seriously,

what happened last night?

I am really tired right now.

and i have this anatomy test to study for.

gahhhhh.

why

Middle Meningeal Artery

2011-11-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Yes I went BACK to MALAYSIA.

now I'm BACK in INDIA!

HOME was awesome possum :)

Met up with my favourite people.

Ate my favourite food.

Spent time with the family :)

And it's kinda sad I'm back here.

Best welcome-back-to-India gift:

NO WATER WHILE I WAS SHOWERING HALFWAY.

Damn good lah.

Brought back loads and loads of food to tantalize my taste buds hahahahhaah.

Check FB.

Went back to class today..

Oh did I mention how fcking muddy this place is?

Because the raining season has come.

Aih.

Incredible !ndia

Anyhooos,
it's good to be back with friends.

It's just us and nothing else haha

Naughty naughty~

To be honest,

the freedom is insane.

but of course,

you shouldn't take advantage of that freedom haha

Recent Happenings.

2011-10-09T02:43:00.000+08:00

Yawns.

2011-09-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

Why HELLO THERE :D

So yes I know my recent posts have been pretty boring.

Partly because by the time I come back from class,

3/4 of my brain cells would've died..

and my creativity all sucked out.

So today,

I'll talk bout India.

Not all the piccies are here because if you're smart enough,

you'd stalk me on the brand new Facebook.

The roomie and I!

Camwhoring in class whilst waiting for the lecturer.

I'm so small beside her D:

And this is the annoying Kanchana (Malaysian fyi).

She sits beside me all the time.

Classes are pretty normal.

I have Anatomy, Biochem and Physio 3x a week.

I carve wax blocks 3x a week for a few hours.

Killer. But I'm loving it :)

Forget bout that.

Next up is the malls! :D

So usually, we would take the Auto (google it).

Most convenient... and from my POV, expensive.

Snapshots!

This is Express Avenue,

India's version of Pavilion.

Though Pavilion is of course, a trillion times better.

There's also Skywalk and Spencer Plaza.

But no pics sorry!

The pics are all jumbled up so... HAHA sorray.

So yeah.

India has like... the fanciest names for roads and streets.

They can be very damn Indian.. or very damn English.

Like the piccie above,

you turn left to Harrington Rd.

Straight up to Nungapakkam.

So the rich would stay in places like Thousand Lights and 14th Avenue, 15th Avenue.....

Nearby,

there's a chocolate shop called Le Chocolatier.

I really don't wanna start mentioning the chocolate chess... and the huge chocolate bunny......

But however fancy it may be, it's still darn dusty -.-

SAVE RAIN WATER.

like...

WTH???

Ahhhhh... the toy shop @ Express Av.

Hamley's!

Esprit.

Something familiar eh? :)

They have:

The Body Shop

Esprit

Charles and Keith

Marks and Spencer

BURBERRY (I know!)

M.A.C

Puma

Nike

Adidas

BlackBerry

Canon

Seiko

Sony Centre

United Colours of Benetton

SUBWAY

BASKIN ROBBINS

and..

a few more that I don't remember.

But..

OKAY RIGHT?

I can survive here.

Inside EA.

And omggggggg...

the cinemas here are fcking awesome!

The place where we buy tickets.. TOUCH SCREEN.

and their toilets.. *eye balls fall out*

Pictures when I go for a movie next time ;)

Did I mention that the Suzuki Swift here is like Malaysia's Myvi?

They're all over.

Basically.. if you know where to go, you'd actually have lotsa fun here :)

So anyways,

I gotta go!

We're off to do some charity work at some orphanage :)

Will blog bout that next time round.

STAY TUNED!

You know you love me ;)

Lazeee.

2011-09-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

It's a lazy Sunday.

Spent Saturday night freaking out over Heartstrings. (Yong Hwa <3)

Well WHAT THE HECK?!

It's SUNDAY.

The only free day from class t.t

I'm really really bored.

I don't like to go out because it's hot.

And makes me spend moneymoneymoney.

CAN'T WAIT TO COME HOME! :D

tada.

2011-09-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

"Do you know the feeling,when your heart is so hurt,that you could feel the blood dripping?"
— Lady Gaga

I haven't been around but it doesn't mean I've stopped loving you.

Heheh I'm bored.

2011-09-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

hahahaha.

okay this place seems to be quite abandoned.

Sorry lahh.

I just got bored and my roomy is sleeping..

so I decided to blog for a lil while :)

Then I'll go back to my Anatomy.

Wheeee.

Anyhooo..

India's been okay.. nothing like Malaysia, but I'm not complaining.

I realised lotsa stuff ever since I came here.

Like, how bad life is for some people.

I learned ALOT.

Like, how to communicate with someone who doesn't speak your language.

And how to handle money PROPERLY (something I never practiced back in Malaysia)

And I learned how bitchy people can get.

And.. I never knew I'd see a child dig through garbage for food.

Makes me realised that curry everyday isn't so bad afterall..

oh,

Malaysia is such a beautiful country. I swear.

Everytime I go out,

this place never fail to take me by surprise.

You people should check out the slums... terrible.

Some of the people here are soooo unfortunate, they don't even have Rs10 (RM0.70) for tea.

So to you people who spend your entire hols eating Snowflakes, sipping on Starbucks.. and indulging in expensive food,

appreciate what you have.

Don't complain.

because you have no rights to do so.

Life here is damn different.

But let's look at it this way,

by living here, we see many things people don't.

We experience it.

So when we get back, we'll have a broader mind set and also we'll be better, stronger people?

No matter what shite happens in future,

we've prolly experienced worst.

From my point of view,

you're not alive until you've seen how bad life can get.

Look at how the people live here,

and you'll realise.

2011-09-02T02:51:00.000+08:00

It's because of you. She's gonna break up with the next guy because of you. And the guy after that. She's gonna keep doing it because for some reason, you're the one she's supposed to be with.

You know you can't give me what I need and even though you mean so much to me, I can't wait through everything.

There isn't a moment of my day that isn't spent wondering where you are, what you're doing, how you're feeling. Even in the quiet of the night, when everything is still and I am nearly asleep, there's a part of me that is still wondering.

If they don't chase you when you walk away, keep walking.

I never want to see you unhappy. I thought you'd want the same for me.

Expectation is the root of all heartache.

So here's a piece of advice: let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before. Surely, there is someone out there who will love you even more.

BOO.

2011-08-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

I was wondering where some of the girls went after class..

and I was wondering what's so important that we have to got to the basketball court..

aaaandd I was wondering why they keep mentioning the same thing..

then they started singing happy birthday, and there was a chocolate cake :')

They walked out to get it :')

Thanks guys. So much :')

:D LOOKIE

2011-08-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Tokyo Street

2011-08-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

It was one helluva day today! :D

Got to hang out with mah girls <3

Thank you peeps! For coming :)

Really really really x10 appreciate you people!

You guys are looking pwetty ;)

So okay,

I'll let the pictures do MOST of the talking here.

Meheheh

The all new BlackBerry models?

HAHAHA.

Arranged in ascending order :P

TGIF for lunch! yummeeeyyy.

Oh don't worry, Laila wasn't eating so Kar-Mun accompanied her.

But they left early so :( but I'm glad I got to see them :D

See what this 2 monkeys are doing.

I shall not post piccies of food and drinks.

Just in case you readers get hungry and start scolding me heehee

With our tummies all filled and happy,

we headed towards the newly opened 'Tokyo Street'.

Sorry pictures can't seem to be rotated.

You may rotate your device :P

Shorties reunited! woohooo!

Inside Tokyo Street.

& yes, the picture. AGAIN.

One of the crazy stuff you get there. Mochi.. so nice.

MEIJI CHOCOLATES!!

ONE OF THE BEST

okay okay you gotta see this HAHAHHA

we went to this shop where the sell super cute stuff.. and here's one of the items:

Before you press the nose.

After you press the nose.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA ROTFLMAO CUTE NOT???

Then there was this CRAZY shop called.. The Click Shop.. something like that.

I think it specialises in lomography cameras.

And they have insanely tiny, toy-like-keychain-like cameras which are fully functional!

Check out that place when you go Pavilion next time.

You see what I mean?

*resisting*

Next stop, a toy shop.

What else can I say? CUTE.

As you can see,

these are like really miniature stuff. For display purposes only.

Okay. I don't know how this sesat-ed here, but yeah.

BIGGEST DOMO-KUN I'VE EVER SEEN.

I stood beside it to show you the size of it

(not like I'm very tall also)

Okay back to our miniature displays.

Give these to your kids and they may consume it and choke. Beware. Hazardous.

I cannot stand the cuteness.

*cries*

Hahaha.

Yeah after that Carve and CHJ went to buy their.. dunnowhatcrepes (edible).

Then it was Snowflakes!

ahhhh, prolly my last Snowflakes 'til when I get back.

Takpe lah, I make my own there.

Prolly taste like sai :P

I drove the 2 monkeys and GSY home.

They were argueing over who I should send home first.

-.-''

Obviously I send the nearest one home first lah :P

Too bad for Carvey.

Here's what they lovelies gave me as bye-bye gifts:

GSY, thank you for your effort! :') Really love the whole thing :)

Hello Kitty origami(s) and an unread letter from CHJ. haiyoh, speechless.

Carvey gave me her busuk baju koko

And yes PRY, I will study hard and play HARDER. Love the tee.

Thanks lovelies!

:'(

Made me cry when I got home.

In front of my parents (hilanglah ego aku) :P

jokes.

Good day good day.

Wished it lasted longer :(

I'm gonna miss you guys like crazy.. aiyah.

Don't worry, I will kacau you people via FB muahahahhaha.

You can't get rid of me thaaaaat easily ;)

I'll talk 'bout the gifts next time.

Will be bringing it with me ;)

Looking back

2011-08-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

I've been looking back at my previous posts

& it sorta took me by surprise because I didn't know I was thaaaaat opinionated :P

but yes.

Certain quotes that have been long forgotten popped up and gave me a wake up call.

In a post that I did back in January,

I said:

I'm not gonna give a rat's ass bout those who don't give a damn.

I'm not going to wait on someone who's not meant to be mine.

I was darn right. Can't believe I forgot.

I mean, if I stuck to those principles, I wouldn't be hurt countless times right?

Yeap. I forgot this quote existed.

I'm going to start living by it.

Anyways.

News of me leaving seems to be spreading like wild fire.

haha

Quite often,

I have people coming up to me and asking.

Makes me sad.

Ahhhhh,

I am yet to start throwing stuff into the luggage.

Today I was thinking to myself,

''This day next week, I'll be there. All by myself.''

It's scary.

My awesome weekend.

2011-08-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

So if you guys noticed,

I removed 2 posts due to.. no reason actually.

Just thought it's an eye-sore and makes me feel sad.

Therefore I decided to remove em :)

I feel like freaking Shakespeare everytime I use 'Therefore'.

-.-

I promised you people that i'd blog bout my weekend,

I am a ~~man~~ lady of my words.

Here goes!

Last weekend (Friday til Sunday) was spent @ my cousin's place @ Puchong :)

It's something like a 'before I leave' sleepover.

The initial plan was to stay for one night, which means I head home on Sunday.

But these people miss me too much so I stayed til Sunday :P

I don't kow what got into me coz I totally forgot to bring my DSLR.

Dang shizzz.

No piccies :( boohoo

Only the ones taken by my cousin sisters heheh

But no worries!

One dumb pic will be posted and I'll get back to you on that later.

So yes!

First night was Starker night.

Erm.. in other words, German beer night.

Headed off to Overtime and hit the shiiizzzzzzz!

Crowded as usual.

The cousin kept saying I was entertaining my BB more than I do her.

(Not true)

We had good drinks.

People around were getting really 'happy'.

Hmm..

this dude and his mates who were sitting right behind the cousin were really, really happy.

Like, whoa.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I couldn't stop LOL inside because his ass kept er.. humping against her back.

and whatever shinding that happened afterwards shall be left unspoken.

I think I finally figured out why I went high so quickly compared to the 2nd night.

I ate early dinner and went drinking in a half-empty tummy.

But I dunno.

It's just my theory.

We watched Captain America on Saturday @ IOI Mall.

I was fighting to stay awake coz I was kinda sleepy.

mehehehehehe ooops.

One word: Disappointing

I camn't stand movies with endings like that.

but then again,

what the hell, it IS a Marvel production.

pfft

That night we went for dinner @ a german place called Stadt.

Beer this round was called Hoegaarden.

Yes I've mentioned it before in posts dating a gazillion years back.

We had a hell lot of meat.

Never eaten SO MUCH meat in my life.

Pork knuckles

German sausages

Lamb cutlet

and..

oh the spaghetti was so good *cries*

I have to highlight the menu though.

The drinks were epic.

There was a section called Mocktail and under that, you have:

Chocolate orgasm

Pussy foot

I dunno if it's suppose to be kinky or what but..

I nearly spat out my beer

HAHAHA

like wtf! Choco orgasm??

Wicked.

I'm lazy to transfer the piccie from my bb so check it up on fb!

We got back to the cousin's crib and!

That's when we went nuts and started taking dumb 'jail' pictures.

Here's a fine dumb example.

Apparently, I was too nerdy and genius-ey so they had to throw me into jail.

& yes, my jail number is 3.142 (pi).

Nerdy enough fer ya? ;)

There was another piccie that looked 10x dumber than this.

Will show you soon!

I had a really good time :)

Words can't describe the amount of fun I had.

Thank you people!

I'll be back for more fun next year!

Light bulb!

2011-08-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!

So I came up with a bright idea today.

As I will be leaving this place for a lil while to pursue my dreams,

I guess I probably won't be blogging much (or maaaayyybeee I will),

so it'll be difficult for you guys to catch up on me.

But whatever,

I might get too tired or too busy to do this,

so I thought I could do like.. a video thingy.

Like,

when I'm too lazy, I'll just make a video, and post it up for you guys :D

That way,

you won't feel like I'm a gazillion miles away (I guess).

Heehee!

Video quality might not be so good coz I don't own a video camera and my Canon 1000D don't do vids,

so maybe I'll film from my Blackberry or my lappie.

Maybe if I prefer vids,

I'll save money and get a video camera when I'm over there :)

So until next time! (:

I'll be blogging 'bout my weekend and posting a few dumb piccies of myself,

so stay tuned!

Hello there, I miss you.

2011-08-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

Yeap!

Hi guys :D

It's August already!

How was it so far?

I'M SO BOOOOOOOOOORRREEDD.

asdfghjklkhasdfghjsdfghjk

That was it.

2011-07-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

After it's release,

I finally watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows II today!

It wasn't too bad :)

I've always preferred the books.

But okay,

not bad :)

Ahhh... well, a lil sad..

coz I sort of grew up reading and watching Harry Potter.

I even got an autograph from Emma Watson.

Hmm.. Wonder where I left it.. gotta search tomorrow.

Yikes!

The ending was hahahahaah.

SO OLD.

but Harry's kid is sshhhooooooooo cute~

I'm referring to Albs Severus Potter btw.

hahah.

Omgahhhhh hah!

Aiyah,

Harry Potter.

LEGEND. something I will never forget.

Probably JK Rowling will be the future Shakespeare.

lol

So here's the ending to my Harry Potter series:

... and JK Rowling lived wealthily ever after.

The End

Smiles!

2011-07-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

So I know that college is over for me,

but some have only just started.

And they're already really stressed out.

I can imagine you looking like this while I type:

Sigh.

I know you're like freaking confused and stressed now.

but take a chill pill k?

Please don't jump off from the 20th floor t.t

It seems tough now,

but as things start to sink in and when you're 110% settled,

you'll be fine okie?

I dunno when she'll read this coz she's prolly too busy :(

Liar, your pants on fire.

2011-07-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

There is one thing I absolutely hate.

and that's cheating.

I don't care in what way you're cheating.

I just HATE.

You people can go ahead and lie to the entire human population,

but,

what goes around comes back around.

Suckers.

Go suck a dog's d*ck.

2011-07-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Friendship isn't about who you've known the longest. It isn't about who you see the most. It isn't about who knows you best. It's about who came and never left.

"Best friend got the girl, so I nailed his sister." - Harry Potter HAHAHAH

If women ruled the world, there would be no war, no mass killing of the innocent. Just a bunch of jealous country no talking to one another.

New toy

2011-07-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

Behold my new toy... :D

Blackberry Bold 9780!

White :)

Thank you daddy and mummy!

LOTSA LOOOOOVEEE~

Recent.

2011-07-21T00:30:00.001+08:00

Okay,

I know I haven't been updating much lately and I have my reasons :P

Yesterday,

I showed you guys some pics from prom.

But I didn't talk much' bout it.

The theme was 'Starlit Paradise' and I can tell you,

it wasn't starlit at all.

It was at Prince Hotel, which is somewhere real near to Pavilion.

The Parentals let me drive, so I did.

Hahah.

It started off kinda... normal.

But towards the end, which was the Dancefloor Moment,

everyone was C.R.A.Z.Y

Like, it was a club or something -.-

hahah

we were on a high, we were.

It was my very first time wearing 4 inch heels.

My feet were super sore when the night ended, nearly couldn't drive myself home.

Wtf.

And, I'm not gonna discuss anything 'bout make up :P

I didn't do it myself. I swear.

Ended around 10.45 ish?

Started driving home at about 11.15 ish..

Had to drive Shaun home, who lives at Bukit Indah.

Not too far.

but I reach home a lil past 12..

Went to bed 2-ish.

what the faggot.

Even better!

I had to do a neck surgery @ Gleneagles the very next day.

OKAY!

Don't freak out.

It was just a minor surgery to remove some Cervical Epidermoid Cyst.

Nothing big.

Checked in around 9am, they sent me to the Day Ward, right next to the OTs.

And guess what?

I got the bed near the window!

And it had the same damn view as the one last time.

If you don't know,

I was admitted into the hospital when I was about 7.

So yeah,

waited til 1pm.

I'm not gonna mention their awesome nail polish removers ;)

They made me change into the surgical gown (whatever you call it).

It was peach, which is great! coz it matches the curtains.

-.-

So they didn't let me walk into the OT

(of course not, pffft)

I had to be wheeled in, while I just lie down on my bed :P

When they wheeled me in,

it was scary coz I could hear all the beeping sounds and what not -.-

Did I mention the place was farking cold??

I was literally shivering my boobs off on the surgery table.

So they brought the table closer to the warmer and gave me extra covers.

hahaha

Surgeon asked where all my fats went.

Well duh!

They made me starve the entire morning -.-''

I was freaking hungry and thirsty I tell you.

They stuck some sticky stuff on my thigh for God knows what reason,

then there was the blood pressure thing on my left arm,

and on my right index finger, the clipped the heartbeat thingy there.

The machine went like beep beep beep..

So yes!

They gave me local anaesthesia.

This has got to be the worst part because,

when he injected me in the neck, the feeling isn't very nice.

And it was a few shots.

But it worked quickly coz I didn't even kow when he cut opened my neck O.O

So the surgeon, whom was very nice,

was making conversations..

And there was something like,

''When you get to uni, that's when you party all night, every night''

and I'm sure I said something like

''Yeah, with the books.''

''That's what you think!''

Was I suppose to laugh?

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

Then he was snipping snipping snipping away in my neck.

At one point,

one of his assistant said

''That's a very big cyst ah.''

O.O

I didn't even know when they stitched me up.

HAHA

The next thing I know,

it was over! :D

They started cleaning me up, from the neck to the shoulders to the back.

It was a hell lot of blood.

Before they wheeled me away,

they showed me the cyst which will be sent for specimen.

Oh yeah.

It's big.

I got wheeled into a room..

I suppose it's where they monitor you after a surgery.

Over there,

again, the blood pressure and heartbeat stuff was stuck all over me.

The surgeon came to see me and I told him my neck feels weird.

He asked how so, I said it feels hot.

here's what he said:

''Aaaaaahh! That means the pain is coming.''

O.O

Finally,

got wheeled back into my ward, where they quickly served me food.

YAY!

There was:

Rice (clumpy and got deco one) , broccoli (dry, very dry), fish chop (SO NICE!), vege soup (not bad), bottled mineral water, hot water, and best part, freaking MILO FUZE!!!

Oh, and watermelons.

Like wtf??

Which hospital serves you meals like that?

:DDD

Aherm,

yeah so I ate like.... aherm.

Sparkling plates :P

But the disgusting thing was (to my mom anyway),

they didn't clean me up properly.

So when I got up,

my bed sheet had lotsa iodine and blood.

There were some blood on the pillow too.

Part of my back still had fresh blood.

Mum wiped it off anyways HAHA

Blablablablabla.

Surgeon came to check up on me,

and he let me go home! :D

Whee~

Then my mummy brought me to the toy shop at the Ground Floor &

she got me a really kawaii toy Penguin.

Will show you next time!

Went home..

etc.

And today!

I finally opened the bandage.. coz it got wet despite the water-proof-ism.

tada!

Freaking small wound -.-

okay not freaking small but.. small lah.

With all that blood..

I thought it would be like really big.

=.=|||

Oh,

I also read the letter the surgeon gave.

The cyst is 1x1.5cm big.

FCUK.

and the bill was RM1833.dunnohowmanycents.

DOUBLE FCUK.

Just for one day.

Prom Night '11

2011-07-19T21:48:00.001+08:00

17.07.2011

President College Prom Night!

A night to remember :D

Also the night I partied the hardest, literally.

Everyone was MAD.

Piccies!

My fav gals <3

Yes yes, I had make up on. -.-

Notice that some of the pictures aren't upright. so..

you may rotate your laptop :P

erh... heh.

This is how the back of my dress look like..

Camwhore moments..

The dress.

The rest are on fb :)

:)

2011-07-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAH.

This is how rain looks like from up there! :D

13/7/2011

2011-07-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

Would you believe it??

Today officially marks THE END of finals

also,

the very very last day of college! :D or D: ?

It was definitely fast!

7 months felt like 7 weeks -.-

But it was one hell of a fun :)

Good memories to be kept.

So, that was the end of another chapter eh?

Felt like school just ended yesterday.

Now this haha

Right after exams we went to watch Transformers 3.

I have to say,

I'm a tad disappointed with the storyline :(

There's no plot!

The only thing that kept me from faslling asleep was the f*cking awesome graphics.

But even that became too painful for my eyes at one point.

If you haven't watched,

prepare yourself

coz you're paying RM13 just for graphics and a hot chic running around in heels.

I only liked the cars.

HAHA

Bumblebeeee~

3.22AM

2011-07-12T03:23:00.002+08:00

I'm officially one of the least sane person around here.

I got home around 6.30pm, after an entire day of brain damaging exams.

Did my usuals and finished dinner at 8pm.

Then,

I slept off 'til 11pm.

I started studying Chemistry until now, this minute.

Nobody studies like me.

It's bad. For health.

heheh.

Chemistry & Malaysian Studies exams later!

Add oil.

2011-07-10T01:57:00.002+08:00

To be honest, it's scary when kids have Facebook. Really.

projectile motion.

2011-07-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

crazy.

I don't care if it's an Angry Bird physics question or not,

I still HATE projectile motion.

2011-07-09T02:10:00.002+08:00

Maths Breather

2011-07-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

I need a break from Maths.

Guess I decided to hang around here for awhile.

So I've been feeling pretty off lately.

No, actually, confused.

This is part and parcel of life.

Full of hellos and goodbyes...

People come and go.

They leave to chase their dreams,

& usually I would really really hate them for leaving me behind,

only to come back a few years later,

or during their breaks.

But now,

it's the other way round.

The news was pretty shocking to my soul.

It felt like someone just slapped me left and right.

I'm just not ready. At all.

It really hurts to think about it.

Every night, I lie on my bed, thinking.

It's not about the good-byes,

it's about the distance.

I feel so attached to my friends here.

I don't go a day without thinking about them at least once.

It's for good but,

it also means leaving behind so many things, memories, etc.

But I guess everybody has to be selfish for once in their life.

You gotta move on, chase your dreams.

Today, I mean, yesterday was the last day of college.

Next week comes the final exams,

& that's it.

I don't intend to talk about what's gonna happen after all that.

The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

2011-07-05T01:24:00.001+08:00

Hahah. Guess what.

I've been learning mandarin on my own.

Sick of people saying that "I am embarassed of my own language''

So here goes:

我到底少了什么？

我比不上她吗？

Not bad.

I was kinda wondering,

how does a person feel when they say a particular someone means the world to them?

They love that person so much?

Is it like,

'I literally cannot live in world which you don't exist'?

or is it,

'I love you so friggin much, I can't love anyone else'?

Not sure if I've ever felt that way.

But common sense.

When you mean the world to someone,

you're truly being deeply loved.

So I guess I should say that,

appreciate the people who loves you.

If he treats you right,

good for you.

If he treats you wrong and cheats,

no need to cut off his balls..

simply just walk away.

Because you gotta know that somewhere out there,

someone is made just for you.

Just have to wait :)

So don't have to cry your eyeballs out if your relationship ends..

or if the person you like, likes someone else..

You may cry on your pillow, but not for too long.

Coz if it's all meant to be,

it'll happen one day.

The wounds will heal eventually.

Of course,

you'll have scars and all..

but c'mon.

Nowadays you have those wicked skin lotion and what-not.

The scars will fade away lah.

He doesn't want you?

So be it.

You have nothing to lose.

But he does.

He just lost someone who loves him very much.

Please don't go wasting your time on someone who's not going to return your feelings.

Let go. Forget. Stay in the 'friends' category.

Don't show that you're f*cking hurt.

Nobody's gonna pity you.

Take it easy..

Like me! :P

Like I said before,

everything in life is temporary.

Today you love him like a maniac,

but you might wake up the next morning forgetting he existed in your heart.

Being deeply loved gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

-Lao Tzu

Take a chill pill!

Relax, enjoy life, flirt to the maxxx.

No harm done, unless you end up a preggar.

Nobody's gonna call you a bitch for experimenting with guys.

Okay. They will.

Don't flirt like a slut.

Choose the right person to flirt with.

LOL

Okay.

I took a BIG round to prove a point:

At this point,

we don't need no boyfie.

Education comes first.

Get that right,

you've got your whole life right.

Men will always love the richer women.

;)

but of course,

not nice to wound up becoming those old single ladies with 27 cats.

So if your heart aches now,

it's okay :)

You'll feel better in no time.

Trust me lah,

been there done that.

It hurts when something good ends, but it hurts even more if you cling to it, knowing that it's not there.

- Wiz Khalifa

Crack.

2011-07-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

Bitch you ain't special, he flirts with everyone.

I am darn right.

Darn, darn right.

So don't think that you're that much of an importance to him.

Coz being the normal ~~and extremely dumb~~ male species,

he is just flirting.

Don't be so happy.

the Swift

2011-07-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Dammit!

I keep repeating the same damn mistake, over and over again.

But then again,

I'm not committed to anybody,

so I can do whatever I want.

Right?

And because of this,

you people catgorize me under 'the thrill-seeker'.

It's funny coz I couldn't stand the rides and Timesquare.

How is that.. thrill-seeking?

Yeah, actually.

To be frank,

I feel like a friggin bitch now -.-

''Don't say sorry if you don't mean it, and if you don't mean to change.''

Darn right man.

But I think it's some kind of permanent thing.

Can't change.

Too bad.

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me wasn't you?

Please stop thinking that I can't live without you.

Coz' there is no such bullshite in my dictionary.

You're not that important,

not anymore at least.

I can't believe that I actually put up with your shite for so long.

What the hell was I thinking?

You probably haven't realise,

but I don't really give a damn anymore.

However,

I'm still gonna deny all this if you ever confront me.

Which makes me a better bitch -.-

ARGH.

I don't like the person I've become.

Satellite dish?

2011-06-30T22:34:00.001+08:00

My Physics presentation is on tomorrow!

HOW A SATELLITE DiSH WORKS?

It works just like how my Astro dish does.

Anyways :)

I'm having a terrible terrible sore throat..

& runny nose?

Sad case.

But I still ate chocolate.

I don't care~

HAHAHHAHA.

How you doing?

Been missing me ? :D

Exams are coming!

Once again.

After that,

it's post college life babehhhhh.

I'm gonna drink like a bitch.

Eh no. Joking.,

That's Au.

LOL

I realised that every morning,

I see the same people.

And

today I saw the guy who reads those finance and economy magazines.

Using his pencil to draw arrows here and there,

underlining funny economy-ish words.

This means one thing:

I'm late.

I don’t understand how pictures never change but the people in them do; how best friends turn into complete strangers; how forever turns into a few short months or how you can let go off something you once said you couldn’t live without; & how people can erase you from their lives just cause it’s easier than working things out.

Because it's just not the same.

2011-06-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

“I finally realize why i kept holding onto something i should’ve let go of ages ago: I was hoping that somehow, someway….. you’d change.”

But nah.

So yeap, I guess this is the end.

because there is no more reason, nothing to hang on to.

Just glad I decided first.

besides,

I'm commitment-phobic.

Everything's temporary.

So is this.

Sore throat

2011-06-28T01:24:00.003+08:00

I'M FEELING ECSTATIC :DDD

BECAUSE I FINISHED PLANTS VS ZOMBIES IN LESS THAN 6 HOURS.

muahahahahhaha

I now can sleep in peace.

2011-06-26T22:58:00.001+08:00

So I guess everything happens for a reason.

I finally feel like,

I'm free.

I AM FREE! :D

hahah. okay ignore my enthusiasm.

So.

Actually, my day didn't exactly start the nice way.

I was pms-ing like mad coz it hurt like a b*tch.

Therefore I woke up at like 8-ish??

Which is waaaaayyy too early for a Sunday.

I fnally dragged myself outtta bed.

Showered.

And ate.

Yeah, the usuals. Why did I even bother mentioning it.

Then,

mom made me drive to the clinic to get checked.

It was unnneccessary, really :P

But okay.

Then,

we went to the grocers.

OMGEEEEE.

I bought Reese's Peanut Butter Cups!!!

Yummmmmmmy.

Actually,

this post is useless.

HAHA.

I just wanted to say I bought Reese's Peanut Butter Cups.

Zombiez ate my brainz.

2011-06-25T14:33:00.001+08:00

With Every Promise.

2011-06-23T20:19:00.000+08:00

It's sad when the people you know, become the people you knew.

I hate it when people change.

'hate' is a strong word.

Things change, people change.

That's why I love photos.

They never change, even if the person in it does.

Sure, I don't mind if you changed for the good.

But,

some people became total strangers.

I missed how you used to be.

Few months before,

you weren't always ditching class.

You used to be my deskmate.

we would talk and talk and talk.

and you,

why do you smell like ciggies these days?

and you,

why not replying my texts?

I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change.

2011-06-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

This presentation can go eat my shoe,

then go to hell,

and rot there.

And my group members have been one hella 'great help'.

FML atm.

Dear daddy..

2011-06-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

The older I get, the smarter you seem to become :)

and maybe, just maybe, the cuter you get HAHAH

Thank you for working hard in order to sustain us,

especially my never-ending needs and wants.

I know you try super duper hard to satisfy me.

I'm so sorry that sooner or later,

a Blackberry request would be on its way to you.

Oh oh and also,

thanks for trying so hard to be a cool dad ;)

Everytime I'm in the car, it's Fly FM.

& you would sing along to Lady Gaga and.. Rihanna?

HAHAH.

Which reminds me,

it's good to know that I have free taxi service whenever :D

I know you're that type who never really like to show your emotions.

Sheeesssh, ego much?

We never do those mushy-mushy daddy-daughter stuff...

(I wouldn't want to anyways)

But I know you love me very muchyyyyy~

Actually,

if I were to say thank you for EVRYTHING,

it would take too long.

most importanly,

I wanna thank you for paying so super super much for my education.

I know you said you don't expect any returns from me,

but but but

WHERE CAN??

You're my daddeh :O

I will feel mad guilty if I don't take care of you guys in future okay!

Filial piety.

lol.

I love my daddeh!

More than you love yours. KIDDING :P

And

I HAVE THE CUTEST DADDEH IN THE WORLD ;)

Things I don't get.

2011-06-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

Seriously, there are so many things that I just don't get.

I don't understand Twitter..

I don't understand how Tumblr works..

I don't even know why I have Skype.

But what I really don't understand?

The way some of you people drive.

How rude can you people get??

Bluhdy hell.

So you see,

I was driving to the doctor's today

And

this was how the situation looked like

(I'm sorry, it's too difficult to put into words) :

See, mwa, the Ethical One was just minding my own business, obeying the traffic rules.

Then, there was a B*stard right behind me trying to turn into that junction.

How is it MY fault that you can't turn into that junction?

STOP HONKING.

I can't go any further in front okay??

Unless you want me to ram into that green car =.=

Unreasonable bastard.

So I was wondering why the freaking ass wouldn't stop honking,

then I looked from my side mirror and saw him giving me all kinds of interesting hand gestures & what not.

You can't blame me for being such a racist.

I'm really trying to stop being one,

but..

that son of a pork really really got on my nerves.

Sheesh.

To make things worst,

HIS SON

who's prolly... I dunno 6 or 7 years old?

The son of a pork's son was fucking jamming on the honk.

Like,

WHAT THE FUCK?

Control your kids!

Frankly,

how, or rather, WHAT have you people been teaching your kids?

You teach them by swearing and showing your middle finger?

geeeeeez

It really made me VERY PISSED.

I started swearing.

My mom was like:

ahahahahah.

Joking.

She didn't say that.

She just told me to not get his mom involved in my swearing session.

I was this close to winding down the window and show him my middle finger.

-.-

I've been trying to control myself.

Like, you know..

try not to swear too much.

But that ass...

really pushed me too far.

That b*stard of the forbidden race.

Exactly.

2011-06-17T21:39:00.001+08:00

I must have burnt lotsa calories these 2 days.

Consequences of being totally insane.

I mean,

who the hell walks up 29 friggin floors, singing along to Glee??

MY FRIENDS

Good exercise I guess, since I've been eating McD's BCG.

Yep!

BCG IS BACKKKKK :D

yummeh~

The entire work out took about.. 20 minutes?

No need for gym membership,

just go to college.

The only disgusting thing is,

the stairs reeked of ciggies..

we emerged at the 29th sweating like pigs.

HAHAHAH.

Ahhh.. will me missed :)

Anywayssss!

I want an iPad!

coz coz coz

coz of Ashwin's stupid one -.-

Got so many games.

Even Angry Birds!

Which looks 100x cuter in HD and wide screen.

I found something which can compete with Angry Birds...

OHMYGEEEEEEEEE.

This game is very kawaiiiiiii~

It's so epic! hahhahahahaha.

Gave me a cardiac arrest.

I spent half my entire 4 and 1/2 hours of break indulging in this,

while Ash went off to the gym leaving with me his iPad.

I"m gonna hog his iPad from tomorrow onwards.

Wheeee~

Never knew I'd fall in love with an iPad.

F*ckmylife.

Newspapers.

2011-06-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

I was in the train and this lady was right beside me,

reading the malay papers.

Here's the header:

Bolehkah undang-undang melindungi mangsa bomoh? (jampi ah? forgot)

I was thinking,

what on Earth, they have nothing better to publish?

Waste ink.

I don't know bout you but I think it's kinda ridiculous.

I think the only sensible papers around are the English ones.

because you see,

Malay papers publish funny stuff, & their headers gets kinda scary..

Chinese papers exaggerates, so now you know why my mom is so paranoid.

Tamil papers, I don't understand.

I'll stick with The Star.

Ungrateful!

2011-06-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

I really ~~hate~~ dislike people who are too self-centred.

What?

It'll kill to stay back for 15 minutes to say good-bye to your lecturer who's leaving?

''Why would I want to waste my time on them?''

Like, what the f*ck?

SHE'S YOUR LECTURER.

You may be smartest in class,

but your attitude sucks.

The notes you're reading NOW,

WHERE did it come from?

The dumpster?

WHO was the one who wrote it aaaaalllllll down on the board for your sake?

If it wasn't for the lecturer,

you wouldn't be getting your kind of results.

The lecturer's been so nice to us.

Oh, when you need her you go to her lah?

When everything's understood, you don't even bother to say goodbye?

YOU UNGRATEFUL BETCH.

You know,

the lecturer could've just told you

''Why should I waste my time explaining this to you again when I already have?''

So all that really matters are your notes and books eh?

Well,

here's the truth,

you're not gonna go far in life with that stuck-up mentality.

Nobody's gonna appreciate someone who don't appreciate their teachers.

Go back to the corner with your nose stuck in the pages.

kthxbai.

2011-06-12T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!

I'm back for some ranting ;)

I'm so bored.

2011-06-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

I was on the train this morning, getting to college.

When tthe train was approaching Banadaraya,

I saw a bright rainbow.

Ain't it a beautiful sight? Made my day :)

I made a wish.

as usual, my wishes involved you.

But this time,

I didn't wish for you to care more 'bout me..

Instead,

I wished that you would have a great life in future, with or without me.

Hate is always easier to put down compared to love.

2011-06-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

You can say sorry a million times.

You can say I love you as much as you want,

say whatever you want, whenever and however you want.

But if you're not gonna prove the things that you say are true,

then don't say anything at all.

If you can't show it,

your words don't mean a thing.

This is why you never never EVER put in your 100% into a relationship.

Coz it prolly wouldn't even last.

Nonono I'm not referring to myself today.

Just sayin'.

In most situations,

this is what happens:

So if he doesn't want you anymore,

so be it lah!

Not like you're gonna die without him.

You're still going to wake up the next morning alive.

Sometimes I feel that we brought all this bullshite onto ourselves.

We already know since the beginning of time that it ain't gonna work,

yet,

we still insist on getting involved.

When I met you yesterday,

somehow,

I couldn't really feel the same excitement that I used to get.

Yeah,

I mean, it was great that I could finally see you after weeks.

Few weeks before this,

I told myself that I was gonna give you a HUGE hug when I see you.

But,

yesterday,

I just forgot.

I wonder if this is good or bad..

Maybe good.

Shows that I am finally, finally letting go.. sort of.

Well,

who knows...

I just don't want to do this anymore.

It really takes a toll on me.

I woke up this morning feeling empty.

2011-06-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

Chemotaxis

2011-06-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

I.want.need.should.sleep.

I've never felt so unwilling to study Bio.

It's making me emo today

T.T

This place's bout to blo-o-o-o-o-o-ow.

Love You To Bits.

2011-06-04T02:32:00.000+08:00

This girl..

the girl whom I thought was super duper stuck-up at first impression.

Is now something like my closest buddy..

maybe lesbo lover? XD

Au is OFFICIALLY 18!

so old!

18 already!

Please don't cry so often.

Not like we're leaving forever!

Besides,

we have things like Skype and all..

maybe sooner we'll have Footbook or something.

Don't worry so much!

Please go find someone else to be lovey-dovey with..

This picture is actually very embarrassing :P

But it's so cute kan?

Wakaka.

Ahhh..

My driver at first..

Now my wife.

LC as... son?

Look at her!

Gedik-ing.

Sorry, picture a lil abnormal.

Feel free to rotate your laptop/computer.

Hello!

I know you're 18 but please...

don't go gedik-ing around!

Box youuuu~

Oh wow. 18.

haahhahahhahahahahaha.

Why not go hit the clubs ;)

Go to MOS: Euphoria

Joking!

Yeah anywaysss..

Happy Belated Birthday!

I know you felt super touched to the max.

coz I'm probably the only one in this galaxy who would drive allllll the waaaaaayyy..

just to give you 2 red eggs.

At night.

Well :)

my mommy wanted to present a lil gift to her 2nd daughter :')

You're like my sister <3

Cheers to our sisterhood!

3 words for you:

Less than three~

Stereo-typing

2011-06-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

My header says it all.

Personally,

I'm not a racist & I don't like stereotyping.

Seriously guys.

You want me to go around with a sticky note on my forehead saying 'I am Chinese'?

I'm not Chindian, Chinlay, whatever.

T.T

People have stupid general perception that ALL chinese, or asians, have small,slit-like eyes.

What?

Now we can't have big eyes? We can't have a tall, sharp noses?

You racist!

You people and your shallow minds.

Even the Whites have a dumb way of stereotyping any other people other than their own.

For example:

The Chinese only eat rice and dumplings

The Indians only have curry

If you're French, you only eat snails (escargo, however you spell it)

You're Italian? You eat pasta and pasta only.

You're Irish? All you eat are potatoes and you only drink beer.

The English drinks nothing but tea.

etc

Come on!

Alright, back to me.

I'm Malaysian Chinese.

What's so difficult to understand?

''Wait, okay, so you're chinese, but Malaysian? Huh?''

Dude,

you want me to give you history lessons 'bout how my ancestors came from China?

It's the same concept like the American Chinese.

& oh.

Not all Asians are short.

Ever heard of Yao Ming?

We Chinese have good language.

Don't mock us.

Not all of us have that 'chinese accent english'.

I don't speak that way. Alot of my friends don't speak that way.

Besides,

it's better than not being able to speak YOUR language.

Can YOU speak OUR language?

No!

Even if you could,

it would come out funny.

One more thing:

Chinese people can't have mat salleh sounding family names?

My family name is Sam.

So I can't be a Chinese?

You're just jealous it sounds cool.

I remember when I used to swim,

those sampat aunties who don't know me would think I'm white.

When they finally saw me, here's what I heard:

"She's not white! She doesn't even look a bit like one! What race is she ah?''

Shallow-minded.

I wouldn't mind that much if you said I'm Japanese or Korean.

Coz..

their ancestors were Chinese anyways

HAHAH.

I'm Chinese.

I'm proud to be one.

2011-06-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

To all

Mrs Bieber

Mrs Super Junior

Mrs Shinee

Mrs 2AM/PM

Mrs Animated

Mrs Whoever-celebrity-you-are-married-to

This!

Is just for you! :DDD

'I love you more than you love me'

2011-06-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

I can't believe you said that.

You said:

''I don't think you love me that much.''

Then what am I suppose to do in order for you to feel?

Even the blind can see

the deaf can hear.

Are you that insensitive?

I don't think feelings can be faked?

If I don't freaking love you enough,

I won't even give a rat's ass 'bout you, your life, and us.

Better I go mind my own business no?

To be frank,

I feel that YOU are the one who don't love me enough.

YOU are the one who don't miss me enough.

YOU are the one who doesn't care enough.

YOU are the one who's not sacrificing enough.

YOU are the one who refuse to believe.

YOU are the one who's always busy.

YOUYOUYOU.

-.-

PUT YOUR ASS IN MY SHOE AT LEAST ONCE FOR F*CK'S SAKE.

ohmylard.

=.=''

I'm not freaking upset,

I'm just f*cking angry.

I'M SO ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Congratulations,

you've reached my limits.

so they say.

F*cknuts. & Spaceman Balls.

2011-05-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah,

I got those vulgarities from the movie I watched today:

PAUL

*thumbs up to the horny-ness & vulgarity*

No wonder it was rated 18.

Next time,

I'm only going to watch movies at GSC.

Student price! ;)

Okay. Lame.

I have come to realise that I've been watching movies pretty often.

Like, 4 in a month?

That's like 1 movie each week, average.

~~I can't stop myself.~~

Mental note:

TRANSFORMERS MUST BE WATCHED IN 3D!

Yea, anyways.

I finally found a song that I can really, really relate to.

It describes everything that I feel now.

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum

Lyin' here with you so close to me

It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe

Caught up in this moment

Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone

So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms

We don't need to rush this

Let's just take this slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

And I don't want to mess this thing up

I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time

It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find

It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

And I don't want to mess this thing up

I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don't want to say goodnight

I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams

Tonight

I haven't seen you in ages~

I Am A Chinese.

2011-05-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yes, you heard me?

I'm CHINESE.

Malaysian Chinese to be exact.

Ever since I was young,

people used to ask my parents if I was mixed.

18 years have gone,

& they still ask.

I have people asking me if I'm:

Japanese (How so?)

Korean

Ceylonese (-.-)

Sadly,

Malay (grrrrr..)

but today:

Chindian

Like WTF??

I'M FRIGGIN CHINESE.

I may not be fluent in my own mother tongue,

but I have Chinese blood.

Please get it right.

Pandas

2011-05-28T22:48:00.001+08:00

Today,

I went to watch a Panda that does Kung Fu.

HYAAAAAAAAAAAA~

Omgee.

Too cute :O

I'm currently sitting here laughing. Alone.

Coz I'm like thinking bout all the retarded stuff from the movie.

hahaha

Shittos.

Dragon Warrior Dumplings are so... cute

BAHAHAH.

I'm laughing like a friggin drunkard.

I don't know if you guys know this but,

my mum calls me Kung Fu Panda.

T.T

Listening to: If this was a movie, Taylor Swift

2011-05-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

I know people change and these things happen

But I remember how it was back then

Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them

Now I'm pacing down the hall

Chasing down your street

Flashback to the night when you said to me

Nothing's gonna change not for me and you

Not before I knew how much I had to lose

Come back come back come back to me like

You would you would if this was a movie

Stand in the rain outside til I came out

Come back come back come back to me like

You could you could if you just said you're sorry

I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

Hello!

You're stalking me again!

Scotty McCreery

is the new American Idol!

He's such a cutie~

Once again,

my predictions are right.

I knew it since Audition Week ;)

I love you THIS BIG

I Am The Biggest Procrastinator In The World.

2011-05-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

Don't give me that look.

I'm just taking a breather from Bio ;)

Omgee,

I have never ending Bio MCQs & Structures to do

Damn true.

Back to the great Bio.

Cinema 9 E6

2011-05-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

I don't think I wanna eat anymore popcorn for quite awhile

-.-

Today,

whilst watching Lanun Of The Kacang Curry,

I experienced the 'joy' of munching on bottomless popcorn.

Okay,

TGV didn't offer bottomless popcorn & never will.

We just bought 2 tubs of LARGE popcorn

which was TOO LARGE.

So it felt like I could go on eating forever.

hahah!

the best bit,

I poured it ALL into Jas's tub,

so she had EXTRA EXTRA LARGE popcorn.

She came out of the cinema looking pretty....... sick.

Right!

So my POVs on POTC..

awesome but predictable.

Hilarious but draggy at certain scenes.

Long live Captain Jack Sparrow! :D

You have to watch it for yourself!

Not giving away any spoilers.

;)

One thing's for sure.

I'm never gonna look at mermaids the same way, ever again.

The have seaweed-looking-whips which shoot out like Spiderman's cobwebs.

they have fangs? & are cannibals?

&..

when they're on dry-land,

their tails become legs..
Mad sexy too.....

Take these broken wings and learn to fly.

2011-05-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,

I wish I didn't give a f*ck.

Then life would be such a breeze.

I guess it's unhealthy to be overly concerned.

Just go with the flow :)

Works best that way.

When?

Lookey!

2011-05-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

Okay okay.

No love talk today :)

I'm done for awhile.

Thanks for putting up with my constant blabber!

Let's laugh:

I see someone's been having fun in bed ;)

Need.

Me lazing away~

Fast & Furious 5 is a farking furious movie.

It defines everything sexay.

This Hurt

2011-05-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

Why did you have to steal it if you didn't want it?

Couldn't you have left it for someone who wants it and won't hurt it?

Some f*cker decided to tell you something untrue bout me,

and you believed?

Hurts to know that that's how much trust you have in me.

'Til today,

you should know how much I care for you right?

If I was unhappy,

I wouldn't even bother replying your texts.

I really don't get it. At all.

Why the fuck are you doubting me?

We were happy!

Why did you have to take it all away?

I feel like one of my only reasons to smile has been stolen from me.

You're not being fair to me.

I'm trying to fix things,

but how am I supposed to do that when I don't even know what in f*ckery's sake is the problem?

This thing between us,

it's that fragile?

I thought you knew what my heart felt,

it seems you don't.

It's raining outside.

Should I let the rain wash away memories of you?

'Someone angry dy'

2011-05-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

:')

You say that everytime I get annoyed with you.

I miss you!

I feel like calling you :)

but I know you're busy coz you haven't reply my text.

you're gonna text me while I'm fast asleep later.

Sigh.

What am I to do?

YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO FLY LIKE A G6~

Confession

2011-05-16T21:55:00.001+08:00

When I say I love you,
I don't say it out of habit.
I say to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me.

I miss you already :')

Til' Kingdom Comes: I Love You

2011-05-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

I don't want to open my eyes,

not if it means losing you.

What you told me today made me break down and just cry.

Why did you have to go and say those words?

Just great.

You just made it difficult for me to say goodbye.

Everytime I think about us being so many oceans and straits and rivers apart,

it tears my heart into a gazillion pieces.

Over and over again.

I just wish we could hold each other tight, like how we always do.

But this time,

I'm not ever letting you go.

What we have between us,

it ain't puppy love.

I'm sure of it.

Nobody has ever made me feel this way before..

WHY?

You promised yourself that you'd stay away.

WHY DIDN'T YOU KEEP YOUR PROMISE?

Look at the amount of shite you brought onto me.

When I finally found someone that I truly wanted,

something - whatever it is, just had to take it away.

I don't know if I can do it anymore,

getting close to somebody so they can leave again.

If we ever part,

and nothing changes,

promise that you'll come back to me.

In The End: Nothing

2011-05-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

I don't know how I managed to develop such strong feelings for you.

Sometimes I really wished this never happened.

No, this time it's me.

You've been great to me lately, thanks :)

I believe in fate.

that if it is meant to be, it'll work out.

But sometimes,

shite happens

and we have to go our separate ways for a lil while somewhere in future.

I'm sorry I can't come with you.

I really am.

I love you,

but I just cannot sacrifice my future to prove it.

Please don't show me that sad face of yours :(

It's killing me from the inside.

I guess I just don't wanna say goodbye,

not to you at least.

To be really honest,

I'm afraid to lose you.

Afraid that one day, you'll forget that I ever existed.

The best option now is to let go.

But it's easier said than done..

I just can't keep myself away from you, not anymore.

Every moment spent with you is very precious to me,

because I know one day,

no matter how much I missed you,

you won't be there by my side.

At the moment,

I feel that things are getting unfair.

We have so lil time left..

Money Talks Bullshit Walks

2011-05-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

I wonder if the things that reminds me of you, reminds you of me =')

I didn't know origami flowers could be so troublesome.

Another failed origami attempt :(

So I just watched the trailer for Final Destination 5.

HOMG!

I soooo wanna watch it!

But but..

it is coming only in August -.-

I just hope I'll still be here to watch it,

or at least,

I hope they have international cinemas over there.

Part of me is wishing for that day to come quick,

another part of me wish I could stay.

Gonna miss lotsa things.

Bleach-athon!

2011-05-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

A drop in the ocean,

A change in the weather,

i was hoping that you & me might end up together.

it’s like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert,

but i’m holding you closer than most,

cause you are my heaven.

I consider myself a crayon.

I may not be your favourite colour,

but one day you will need me to complete your picture.

It’s hard to wait around for something you know will never happen, but it’s harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want.

Dance the night away~

2011-05-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Getting up early in the morning and going to college on your period:

On the inside:

On the outside:

"FML. I NEED CHOC."

''WHERE THE F*UCK DID ALL THE CHOC IN THE FRIDGE GO?!"

"I'M GOING TO EFFIN KILL EVERYONE"

And all the guys stare at you like:

But the girls are like:

"I understand your pain.''

Belieb.

2011-05-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hey folks!

So today I'm gonna do a lil post bout:

Ahh.. yes.

The Bieber.

But before I start ranting on and on 'bout him,

no - I'm not a fan

yes - I have nothing against him.

Check:

http://www.mybieberexperience.tumblr.com/

Got this off JB himself via Twitter.

So after reading all the mad long stories on that tumblr,

I have come to realise the massive amount of crazy fans that kid has.

The kid's younger than me!

-.-

I have to admit,

he is kinda cute.

But I don't understand why 'em girls, even ladies go gaga at the mention of his great name.

They look at him like he's God.

Okay fine.

This kid is really really inspirational,

he's hot,

he speaks cute..

He tweets cute stuff but..

WHAT?

I wonder how Jb feels,

you know,

knowing that 99% of the girls around the world go psycho over him.

JB IS HUGE.

As in HUGE.

Whatever it is,

those are one of the things I can never understand.

But,

seriously,

he hasn't done anything wrong.

So why are some of you people hating him like the devil?

Are you jealous that he's some Canadian kid who did home-made videos, posted them on Youtube

Baaam suddenly he's famous?

That's life.

We're all not as lucky as him.

Well, at least he doesn't annoy you like Rebecca Black and her shitty Friday song.

Here's a question I've been asking myself since the day I heard of JB:

What's the fuss about his hair?!

No.

Like, seriously?

They even have a name for his previous hairstyle.

-.-

And when he cut his hair somewhere this year,

it made the fans all over the world cry..

. . .

What is wrong with the world??

geez.

It's just hair for f***'s sake!

It'll grow out eventually -.-

Hahah.

It's funny how they mad words from his name.

Some fine examples:

The Beliebers

The Bieberians

Oh My Bieber! (OMB) <--- this is the funniest

Imagine if one day I become incredibly famous

(which I would)

people start saying..

The Samanators

Samsters

Oh My Sam! (OMS)

they go around saying:

This is samtastic!

Awesooooooooooome~

Inhabitants of the entire galaxy will be infected with Sammi Fever or something.

So much fame,

so much moneyyyy.

No money no talk.

hahhah.

Such shinding.

Watch:

"Step 4: Stir it well, baby.."

Good one Biebs!

okay

so I should really stop coz it's actually kinda late,

and I can't stand typing bout this kid anymore.

My fingers are refusing me :P

Three words for you Justin Bieber;

Less than three

(Hear the sarcasm? :P)

2011-05-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

So true :)

But a little inaccurate for my case

haha.

I ain't in love with funny guy.

This topic seems to be the hottest topic these days.

Friend meets/see guy,

falls in love..

3 endings:

Ending 1: They get together and live a fairytale

Ending 2: The love is one-sided. Friend turns lesbo from a broken heart.

or grows fat from eating too much.

Ending 3: Nothing happens. Coz that love won't last.

Oh wait.. make that 4 endings:

Ending 4: Girl falls in love with someone else.

You see!

College is like the ultimate dating club.

I actually promised myself that I wouldn't get close to anyone in college.

But then it didn't work out..

GAH.

*grabs hair*

Eh no. Jokes.

Then,

I see friends getting hooked up with their hunks.

Changing Fb statuses from 'Single' to 'In a realtionship with ________'

or at least,

it becomes 'It's complicated'

If that doesn't happen,

signs of heartbreak can be seen through their emo posts.

Sheeeesh.

Contaminate my homepage with emo-ness.

Get this:

I don't understand why people like to tell the whole world that they're in a relationship with someone?

Okay, you're happy, I get it.

But dude,

keep it to yourself lah!

You're hurting the others who secretly love you ='(

hahah right.

I guess what I'm trying to say is..

You can't stop yourself for falling in love.

It's automatic.

~~Which sucks.~~

Haih

Sweet.

That's me! =D

What's behind the green glass door?

2011-05-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Actually,

there really isn't anything much for me to blog 'bout these days.

But I'll discuss a few stuff tonight :)

So I was looking through somebody's Sports Day pics on FB.

Stalker much? :P

I missed the event okay! :(

Anyways!

Back to what I was about to say..

I have one question:

WHY ARE THE CHEER OUTFITS SO WEIRD??

The skirts are like friggin' knee-length!

*Sigh*

Okay fine,

I completely understand that it can't be too short coz it is 'slutty'

but

knee-length is mad fugly

-.-

The make-up: hideous.

Word of advice:

If you're chubby, please.. don't get into a cheerleading outfit.

Please.

I can't stop thinking bout yesterday..

Yesterday's gathering with 'em secondary buddies =D

Shite disappointing coz half of 'em weren't there.

Lan ci lah..

cikgu belanja pun tak mau datang. Ish

JOKING

Despite the fact that I didn't eat since 11am yesterday,

I only had one slice of pizza + a few forks of spag.

A few rounds of gossip,

which I wasn't really interested in.

Then that was it.

Pschhhh.

But there IS one thing to be excited 'bout.

wait for it...

I GOT A RED ANGRY BIRD!!

=DDD

oh the joyyy.

Got it from Kinokuniya for RM4.90

Delighted :)

Even better!

Jasmine got me 3 Angry Birds!

I love that girl.

*Dance along to the Angry Birds song*

Ahem.

Back to the gathering part.

Well, my ex clasmates have definitely grown over time.

Some of them have finally discovered make-up.

Some seem to have more hair.

Some became super chio!

Some have discovered mini skirts and heels (coughGSYcough)

Some totally ruined the boots

some.. remained the same.

It's good to see them ~~all~~ again, to be frank.

Good to see the teacher again.

She called me Kahmun/Carmen/Kahmunn though -.-

*cries*

It really proves that tiime can really dilute a person's memory,

& also change a person.

For better or for worst.

Do I look like a Carmen/Kahmun to you??

Fairytale

2011-04-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

The Royal Wedding of

Prince William

Kate Middleton

Made me go Awwww watching them kiss.

But,

the kisses weren't intense enough.

So it was a fairytale come true for Kate.

A commoner like her, getting married to Prince William.

Ahh,

such is fate.

Her wedding dress was so pretty.

& like what all Brits like to say:

It's absolutely fabulous.

So,

when is YOUR fairytale going to come true?

Meselson and Stahl

2011-04-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly.

You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly.

You can be the captain and I can be your first mate.

You can be the chills that I feel on our first date.

You can be the hero and I can be your sidekick.

You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split.

You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'.

You can be the sun when it shines in the morning.

Don't know if I could ever be without you coz boy,

you complete me =)

oooh.

Can't stop putting this song on replayyy

Hecks.

Angry Birds! Latest Addiction

2011-04-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Meh.

The green piggies too cute.

I want the toy =')

2011-04-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

You know, the fear of letting people in, getting close to somebody and then it just not working out.

- One Tree Hill.

Ouch.

Too Bee-oo-tee-full

2011-04-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

So yesterday I had a sudden yearn for books.

Yes yes,

I haven't been reading a book in ages.

(other than the ones which are academic-related)

So it was after Malaysian Studies,

Jas and I were @ Elianto coz I felt like buying nail polish.

Unfortunately,

I didn't like any, due to my mood.

Being the tom-boyish one,

Jasmine just stfu and chose whichever colour she thought was nice.

Stood there bout 15 mins, decided not to buy.

Theeeeenn..

there was a book clearance sale!

RM 10 per book like wtf!

tomorrow,

gonna go to the book fair at PWTC with Jas :)

Anyways,

'nuff with that bs.

I wanna play Angry Birds! :D

HAHAHHAHA

The birds are round.. & the pigs are GREEN!

mad stuff.

Played it on Jas's PSP.

Shite stuff.

Everyone was giving me the look.

Gonna hog her PSP tomorrow :P

Even Kei has Angry Birds Rio on her Xperia!

Itching with jealousy..

Yeah anyways.

Been feeling kinda anti-social nowadays.

Like,

I've been neglecting some people but

I'm sorry lah.

Not in the mood.

In fact,

I'm thinking if I should even show myself at the college's pool party this Friday.

It'll be awesome.

Bad feeling the suckers would bring 'stuff'.

But,

*sigh*

It's time to move on lah.

Time to move on from certain things.

Time to move on if something isn't working out.

No point missing something that isn't coming back.

Even if it does come back,

it wouldn't be the same.

Miss.

2011-04-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'm not stupid FYI.

2011-04-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hello.

So I finally got my Semester 1 results today..

It's not as bad as I thought it would be :)

But I'm not really satisfied.

The CGPA looks low.. compared to Prem's.

Meh.

Anyways,

shit have been happening these days.

I just can't wait to get my ass outta here.

I hope and pray to God that I will miraculously get it

start anew.

Like,

if I had money,

I'll be booking a ticket now.

A ticket to another country where nobody knows me.

bliss.

Beep.

2011-04-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

At some point you will realise that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to take is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, it’s just that you have to draw the line between determination and desperation.

For You!

2011-04-20T23:09:00.001+08:00

想跟我吵架，我没那麽无聊

Let's cry.

The tears of frustration.

This feeling can never seem to be resolved.

So if you wanna leave,
don't bring my heart with you.

Emotionless Betch I Am.

2011-04-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

If everyword I say makes you laugh,

I'd talk forever and ever..

Such Uncertainty.

2011-04-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

I guess it is true when they say

It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

I never expected things to turn out this way.

but I'm glad that some long awaited answers have been given.

So now even if I wanna let go,

I can do it in peace.

But I don't think I can do it.

Sometimes I wish this feeling never existed then I guess I'd be quite happy now.

But stuff happens and Cupid does all the wrong things at the wrong time.

Again.

now there really isn't a place for me to make a U-turn.

~~Omg I'm so in love, I've found you finally.~~

~~ohmygosh.~~

HAH K IGNORE THAT.

was listening to animax.

If only we could freeze time.

I would wanna preserve our every moment together.

You leaving one day to somewhere far from me really breaks my heart.

Wish we could have more time.

2011-04-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

Day 30 - What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

This month huh..

Well,

I grew taller.

hope to grow more next month.

2011-04-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

Day 29 - A picture of yourself

2011-04-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

Day 28 - The month you were happiest this year and why.

We're barely halfway through 2011

I'll talk bout the month I was happiest last year okay?

In fact,

I was very happy every month last year.

Ah fine.

Happiest months:

The times @ school.

Miss it.

2011-04-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Day 27 - Talk about your siblings

He is very unfortunate.

God bless him.

2011-04-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

Day 26 - Your religious beliefs

God exists.

What goes around comes around.

It's okay to get together with someone of a different religion.

I understand that you have to spread the word of God,

but please,

don't preach me

don't try to brainwash me.

I have a religion.

kthnxbai

2011-04-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

Day 25 - 10 ways to win your heart

I'm a very simple person.

So it's very difficult for me to tell you 10 ways.

But okaaay..

*Thinks*

*Thinks harder*

10. Show me that you really do give a damn & it really matters to you.

9. Sweet words has a way of making it into my heart.

But sweet talk is BS.

8. Make me origami hearts.

7. As you know, cute texts :D

6. Buy me a bar of Snickers and the job is done.

5. Don't buy me teddies/soft toys.

4. Use protection ;)

~~I like featherlite.~~

3. Love me, love my bb.

2. FLOWERS :DDD

1. If you're hot and sexy, all 9 ways above does not apply.

2011-04-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

Day 24 - Things you want to say to 5 different people.

To Parents:

Thanks so much. I don't know how to repay you guys :)

Wouldn't be here without you peeps.

I'm gonna make your lives better in future.

To Jean:

Bestest cousin ever :D

What the hell man!

It's us against the word sis.

Peace.

To LC:

Woman, thanks for putting up with all my shite.

I think you are one of the few who can actually tolerate with my mood swings :S

You are like,

the sister I never had :')

To Auness:

Ahh, haven't been calling you by that name for awhile.

Eh,

I think I'm the only one who can tahan your lameness right?

What ice cubes and cuba all.

your constant change of mind,

drives me nutty.

Decide lah! :P

To PRY:

Hello, you still exist ah?

lol

pick up the phone and say hi also cannot?

Eh, jokes.

You just did it this morning.

Muacks.

ily big time. BIG time.

2011-04-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

Day 23 - Something you always think ''what if...'' about.

There are no what ifs..

Everything happens for a reason.

But there is one question I've always wanted to ask:

What if we last? Will we be happy?

2011-04-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

Day 22 - 10 things about you people don't really expect.

Okay, this is tough.

10. I don't like to show people how I really feel.

Unless asked.

Ego much ;P

9. Littlest things makes me smile like an idiot.

8. I'm gonna miss me bf more than my mom.

k. ignore that.

7. I hate it when people reply late, esp when imma desperate for an answer.

6. You don't know how to use smileys?

or you can't find the icons?

Use smileys when you text me!

lifeless you.

5. Dumb at the wrong moments.

4. Smart at the right moments.

3. I love my friends =')

2. Secret addiction for cupcakes.

MM YEAH YUMMEH

make me some?

1. I DUNNO LAH.

wth.

asking challenging questions.

It's a funny thing between you and I.

2011-04-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

The epic moment when the person you like, likes you back :')

It was nice that you were the first person I saw today :)

It really made my day all worth while.

To see you smile is all it takes.

I don't know what you did to me.

But my mind goes to another dimension when I'm with you.

my heart beats too fast.

Whatever it is,

:')

Thank you. Really.

Airhead

2011-04-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

I don't hate you for pushing me away, I just hate myself for putting effort on someone who doesn't care.

This is why he's always in your head. It's coz you're trying to figure him out and you just can't seem to let go of him til you have.

2011-04-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

Day 21 - Something you seem to can't get over.

HAHAHHAHA.

I'm like watching Nigahiga videos on youtube.

It's so epicly hilarious!

I just can't stop laughing over and over again.

Tschahahahah.

Actually,

I don't understand why I'm sooo.. vertically challenged.

A few inches extra will definitely do me some good.

oh wells.

People like me for who I am no? ;)